My birthday is tomorrow, and I’m turning 36.
The older I get, the more I learn, and the more I learn, the more I realize I have so much left to learn, and the less time I have in my life to learn it. I realize this sounds sort of morbid and a bit scary, but it makes me feel excited and motivated to make every day an adventure in learning and growth.
Some iteration of this sentence has been mulling around in my mind for the last few months as I've approached today, my birthday. I’m turning 36 and honestly couldn’t be happier. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to remind myself that the life I have is real because there have been so many times during my teenage years, in my twenties, and even in my early thirties where I have felt either profound sadness, debilitating anxiety, or profoundly stressed out about the direction of my life.
While I don’t think I’ll ever get to a place where I’m satisfied to the point that I stop trying to improve, I really do feel good on the path I’m on as I work towards where I want to be. I finally have a vision for where I want every facet of my life to go, and each day is dedicated to working on a few of those facets of my life. Whether it’s the relationships I have with my friends, family and boyfriend, my financial goals (I finally paid off my student loans!), whether it’s my work, or my wellness goals - there’s a clear vision and respective goal in mind, and each day I try to chip away, making strides toward those goals.
Over the years I have learned that sometimes the goals change, and that’s okay, so long as I don’t become complacent. Complacency is my worst nightmare because it lacks purpose, and a life without purpose is not a life I want to live.
I feel so proud of what I’ve accomplished in the past year:
I finally got my sleep under control, and I have honestly never felt better.
I was so scared to sit for the NASM CPT test because I have bad test anxiety, but I really wanted to have that certification under my belt, and I passed on the first try.
I’ve never opened a brick and mortar space before, so the entire process of opening Namaslay® Studios has been daunting, but we did it! It’s not only the most beautiful, inspiring space I’ve ever worked from, but it’s also a space that is home to the community I’d like to create in person.
I finally paid off my student loans!!!!!!!!! (You can read all about that journey on the YBC® app.)
And I am so looking forward to this year and all that might come. In business, I’d like to continue to work on Namaslay® Studios, growing the little community here. In my personal life, I’d like this year to be the year I buy my first house. With a little yard and space for a small home gym.
I know some people get worried about being older, but each year I feel more and more happy. Each year, I gain more clarity about what’s important to me and what’s not. Each year, I feel, is such a gift, and I’m so grateful. Thank you for being along for the journey with me.