Hey everyone, Candace here. I can’t believe it’s only January 14th, because to me it feels like an entire year has gone by since I watched the ball drop on December 31st.
I had originally scheduled a Favorite Things post to go up today, but there was a glitch in the system and it’ll have to go up at a later date. It figures. I’ve been having a rough go of it as of late, and I just wanted to share a bit here because sometimes the ‘gram makes things look so picture perfect but reality says it’s anything but.
A few weeks ago, I shared that I’m starting a parasite cleanse to deal with some health issues that’ve popped up over the last year or so. (Another example of how things may look glorious from the ‘gram where I’m galavanting around the globe, but in reality I’ve probably contracted some weird parasite that’s messing up my body.) I’m going into depth about it on the YBC® App, but in short, it’s just been difficult. The protocol is a bunch of herbal supplements and a very strict diet similar to keto, I’d say, and it’s thrown my body for a loop. I find myself food prepping constantly, spending so much money on food (nearly $450 in two weeks for two people), and losing weight I didn’t want to lose despite eating constantly. The die-off effects leave me run down and exhausted, but I don’t want to quit because my naturopath said that if you quit in the middle of the cleanse, the parasites can develop a resistance to the powerful herbs we have been using and then you’re dealing with King Kong versions of them, haha. I’ll be done in March, and there is some good coming out of this experience, I think, but I’m just struggling a bit because…
I’m also in the middle of moving in with my boyfriend and that’s been hectic with renovations to his kitchen which should be completely finished this week (looking forward to sharing). We’re turning his guest room into a closet for me (eeee! I’m excited about that), and we can’t start that project until I get a commercial space, which I had until the landlord went back on his word and decided to charge me more per month and shorten the lease term. I refused to agree to that mostly on principle, but also because if I’m going to spend about $3,000 putting down flooring for a studio, I need to be in the space for at least three full years. So now I have two weeks to move my YBC® stuff out of my old space, and I just don’t know where to put it. We don’t have room to put it in my boyfriend’s condo. Do I hope I find a space before my official move out date? Do I get a storage unit until I find the perfect new commercial space? And then I’ve got all the annoying moving To Do’s in the back of my mind - change my address, figure out if I need to register the business in a new town, call the internet/cable company, finish packing and moving, schedule cleaners and a walk through. And all while I’m feeling very under the weather due to this parasite cleanse. It just feels like my life is in complete disarray right now.
I know it’s temporary, and good things are on their way, but man, it has been a rough start to the year, that’s for sure. I am super grateful for my team for putting up with me being pulled in a million different directions (projects aren’t completed, emails go unanswered for days at a time), and grateful to my immediate family and close friends who have been so supportive and kind throughout this transition.
I’m trying my best, but sometimes it feels like what I’m doing isn’t enough. Sigh. Anyway, I wanted to share all this because I know I’m not alone - that other people are also out there feeling like they’re running around and getting no where. I also wanted to share this because I often get DMs on Instagram that are like, “How do you do it all?!” and my answer is - sometimes I’m on top of things, and sometimes - like now - I’m not. So, as you can see, we’re all just human, doing the best we can with what we have. We’re in this together. And if anything, maybe this is a good reminder to myself and others to extend a little more kindness because while things may look great on the surface, we never really know what people are dealing with behind closed doors. Sending love.
xo, Candace